We’ve had a horrendous day.
At around 10.15am baby Jesse managed to pull himself up and then fling himself off our bed. He flew past my left leg and on his way to the floor he smacked his head on the edge of our bedroom door. He cried instantly and then went very quiet and floppy. An ambulance was called and the paramedics decided to take us all in. The doctors were concerned about some swelling but sent us home after a few hours of observation. After a snooze and a feed the little fella was back to his usual self and full of smiles for his terrible mother who let him fall. All he has to show for his exploits is a fairly impressive bump on his forehead and a pair of little bruised knees.
I have cried so much today. The fact we were attended to by what has to have been the most patronising doctor in the whole of the NHS probably didn’t help. Funnily enough I was aware that the accident might have been prevented… surely the fact I was cradling my son in my arms while sobbing heavily was an indication of the fact my maternal guilt had already kicked in. Honestly, zero bedside manner.
Uggh… I feel completely emotionally drained.
Loveaudrey xxx
Hey …maybe it was avoidable, maybe it wasn’t, but nobody’s perfect and Jesse’s fine, that’s the important thing. Don’t beat yourself up anymore than you have already hon and eff that doc – he doesn’t know you, or what a fab Mummy you are.
Hope you feel much better tomorrow xxx
It might have been preventable, but accidents always happen so don’t beat yourself up about it. Hope he’s ok now x
Oh god!! Poor YOU! I agree, don’t beat yourself up! I have about 17 half siblings and most of them have had similar accidents, it’s what babes do! I would also feel guilty if it was me, so I do understand why you feel emotionally drained, STUPID doctor too, What a idiot! Take care xxx
Thank you ladies for your supportive comments. Jesse is perfectly ok, even his bruise has dissappeared now. Guilt is a massive part of motherhood… def goes with the territory!! xxx